One of those fucking days.....

Shit. That's all I can really say. What is a "vibe" really? I had a vibe today and I dont know how to explain it. The way the sun shined down on me reminded me too much of Iraq. I felt this vibe before, but how do you explain a vibe?!

I experienced a mood today, I really never have experienced. Things were going in slow motion. I felt like hurting anyone that stood in my way. I miss Iraq. I want to get on a plane right the fuck now and just fly over, but I cant, so I'm going nuts, and I have this rage built up.

People tell me, "Cody just relax, everything will be ok, just wait and see." Well I say fuck that I've waited, and it's time for me to get mine. When will it get better then? Because I've been getting told this for almost 2 years and shit has only gotten worse. I'm out for me now, you aint down get out my way.

But back to that Sun. It just felt like a magnet, something is calling for me. I need to follow the path that I know I was born for. Just like the B.S movie Jarhead, I'm still in the desert in mind.

See me
Hear me
But don't touch me
You should fear me
Lived your life dearly
'Cause I'm seriously disturbed
That's my word
Straight to my mother
Wayne, my brother
Who found another one to play sucker
'Cause I ain't the one
Who put shade in your sun
And took all your shine
Watch me get mine
Feel my love burn
Me for my sins
Watch the world turn
The cycle begins
Losses and wins
Angels and sins
Dancin' on top
O' the head of a pin
Don't know where I'm going
But I know where I've been
I can't hear a sound
I clapped a full round
I came to get down
I came to get dirty
I came to get even

Do you have bad drems?
All I have is bad dreams.

How could such a young life go so wrong
Momma dont cry, you did nothing wrong

-Everlast